heyy guys i know i haven't blogged for a week or so but i have had exams at school and i have been in a really low mood where i dont want to do much. So i think the best post for today to cheer me up and reflect on every thing. So today i will be doing a relect on my year so far.
Yes i have had my up. Yes i have had my downs, a lot of them, yes i have had fun. I know i have lost friends and gained friends.
So the start of the years was the hardest. I did do things i do deeply regrete but we all know we cant turn back time and if we could i would go back a good 4/5 years. I cant really say what happen but if it wasnt for lucy (my best friend and from sparkleoflucy) i dont think i would be in the place i am today. I do have to admit i have been excluded this year and u can not count them all on one hand. I got in fight. My mouth has ran off with itself.
But i have managed to get my blog running again. I know it isnt as often as i would like and i know i can change that in the future. But i have turn a huge corner since september. I have got in no trouble, that could be because i have been ill, i havent done stupid things.
I know i will have bad day and i know i will have days where i dont want to move out of bed but lets take each day as it comes. We all know we cant be perfect all the time.
I have to admit i did mess up a lot this year. I missed lessons, didnt turn up fir school, kicked off at people and loads more. But now i know it all cant control me but i can contol it.
I have taken my own advice with my anxitey post and not let it control me. I know some days it will such as monday it got to lunch time and i was it melt down mode. But that was that first time in a long time. I am starting to force myself to go in crowds. No, i cant handle them most the time but i will be trying again. Yes, i did sit in a briefing on friday, yes, i did feel panicy but i was determin to do it and not let it beat me.
So my goals to myself (that isnt blogger maddie) is to face it all straight on and not go round it. IT WILL NOT BEAT ME!!!
Hope you enjoyed. Please leave a comment say what you achevied this year and when would you go back to in your life.
XOXO Maddie