GOALS FOR 2018

Hey guys, I know I have been a bit distant these last couple of months but I am back with need this to test out and write about. These last couple of month I have had writers block and not been able to write a post I have try multiple of time and it just looks like a 5 year old work. Today I am going to write about my goals and I will make sure I will stick to them for you guys.

So to start with is blogging, I want to start blogging twice a week for you all so on Mondays and Fridays. On Monday is will do a product review this will be mainly drugstore products but I will do some luxury product as well. It will be a bit of hair care, skincare and makeup. On a Friday I will do a subject of your choice so I will put a poll on twitter with different topics. So it will cover things like mental health, college life, the past, my school experiences, some Fridays I will pick the topic depending on the day.

YouTube, I am planning on kick starting YouTube again. Videos will be uploaded Thursdays, Saturdays and Tuesday. They will be on many different things. for example challenge, tutorials and vlogs. I know it is a challenge but over time it will get better and more frequent. I will try and put them up for 6 pm UK time as well as my blog posts.

Everyday life, my goal for everyday life is quite hard because I am someone who care about others before myself. So my goal is to focus on myself and learn to love myself the way I am so i can be happy. Also to try and start to appreciate myself, my friends and family they are all I need. Finally to keep myself well, last year I was always poorly to the point i was a the doctors on a weekly basic with no voice. 

                                                                

Leave a comment what your goal is for this year

XOXO MADDIE

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my morning routine

hi guys, today i am able to sit down for 20 mins and write this post am as it is 11.50 in the UK. i have literally just got up, washed and dressed. so i just through it would be easier that i did it now.

first thing in the morning i get a phone call of my mum or dad telling me to get up washed and dressed but like today i arent at work till 1 but i do have to walk there. so i turned it on to silent last night so that they didnt wake me up.

i am one of those people who as soon as i wake up i check my phone. and the get up and go to the toilet. 9 times out of 10 i will getting back into bed instead of making it.

Then i hop in to the shower and some mornings i dont wash my hair like today but i do go in and fheshen up. after my shower i will run downstairs and get my work top off the radiater and go back up.

i went and did my hair in a simple ponytail with little messy. today i felt like putting makeup on so i did a simple eye with a pink lip using my sisters benefit 2 in 1 lipstick. (shhh).

finally got dressed and went downstair and made a cup of tea and took my tablets and chilled for 30 mins.

last but not least i descided to start walking to walk with my head phones in.

leave a comment  on what morning routine is.
XOXO Maddie

look back on the past

Hey guys, I know it has been a while since I last uploaded. I think I did explain on my last post, but if you haven’t seen it I will tell you now. I have currently been sitting my GCSE’s and I have finally finished about three weeks ago and I am now on the road to sorting my YouTube up and running again it has been about a year or two since I stopped doing it. Also both blogs will have regular posts i will try and do it on a Tuesday or Wednesday, but don't hold me to it.

Anyway, today's post as you can see by the title, it is about my past. Just like everyone else i have had my highs and lows. I have had a lot of difficult times and it has been crazy. I have changed loads and i mean loads.
So basically, when i was born my parents wasn't together and they lived in different cities so it was a crazy start going between them both. But the best part was having two birthdays and Christmas.

7 years again my mum met a new man and he is more of  dad than my real one.

4 or 5 years ago i stopped seeing my dad because we had a huge fall out and I have chose not to see that side of the family. It has been hard but it has made me the person i am today.

3 years ago I started suffering with anxiety and depression. I was in and out of school and things have changed so much, it wasn't my best friend but i have been in therapy.

Last year my mum married my stepdad . I was only in school one day a week.

So far this year, i have just taken my GSCE and been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and started living life again to the full.
It has been a difficult couple of year but here are some of my memories and the different point i have come in life.

Thank you as always for being on the jouney with me. Hope everyone is having a lovely summer. and stay strong be positive you will get there in the end no matter what. don't for get to leave a comment on when you had a hard time in your life.

XOXO Maddie 

Body image

Hey Guys, I am so sorry for the lack of comunitcation and the no posts. Today i wanted to talk about body image and the stigma on body image.

People think that everyone should have a arse and big boobs. With a thin waist and legs. People think that people should have big lip, perfect hair and brows. But realisticly that will hnever happen. Not sveryone is the same shape and size. We all are unique in are own way. For example i amd i am tiny and short and a good friends of mine is bigher and taller woth small eyes and she has am amazing figure.

At one point in my life about 2-3 years ago i was a short chubbie person and i became ill and i lost loads of weight. I got really unwell and now people complain that i am to thin. But sometimes I do feel and think i am 'fat'. But in realitiy i arent. I have got to the point where i am in kids clothes i used to fit in adult clothes but the legs are way too long for my short legs and the kids are to.

I just want to say that not one should be judged on the parence and their size and height. You are all perfect the way that you are. I now know that and i now do thing for myself. Such as wear make up , do my hair nice, get percings and wear clothes. The one thing i don't do is show it off. I never wear belly tops, shorts or boobie tops. I am a over size girl and i 9 time out of 10 wear hoodies. But i am going to college in september so i am going to try and challenge myself to start wearing fitted tops, dresses and other clothes not jumpers and jeans.

I feel like if your look in the mirror and think bad about yourself you feel bad about yourself. And then you think everyone else is thinking that to but they propbally aren't. I know kids are crowel these days but i think that it is because they thing that about themself i know you think they are perfect.

I have no confidents and i throught my body was the reason why but it isnt. No matter what size i am i still arent verdonfident but when i was younger and chubbier i felt much more confident. I just want to say being thin doesnt always boost your confident. Also loosing it all at onces isnt to. I lost all my weight like a click of the fingers and now i am always poorly. I have trouble with my back but since i lost the weight i do have a lot more pains and i am very run down.

I want to you all to know you are all beautiful and dont let people put you down. And you dont need boys to tell you, you are beautiful. Also boys should love your personaltiy not you apparence.

Leave a comment on this topic and what you think about it. We can all help each other in every situation.

XOXO Maddie

Ps there might not be as many post as the next two months are exams 😬😬

Whats going on😘

Hey guys, i just have to admit something to everyone. It is that my anxiety has been doing my head in. I have so much going on at the moment. Such as it i have 12 week left at school and 6 weeks of that is exams, my sister has had a huge accedent reasently with has left her with several sergurys. Finally my anxiety is just hittig me like a brick.
But i have had loads of different side affects such as a rash on my neck it is a new side affect, my chest has been tight and it hurts also unconfiable. Some days are better than others. I find it so hard to get out of bed 4 days out the 7 and weekends 9 times out of 10 i dont get out of my pjamas. People say it is unhealthy and i know it is but i dont have the engery let allow the moteration to get out of them.
I am a parranod mess to it alway feel like i smell but when people spray it sends my nose crazy. I spray some perfume and deodarant that isnt too strong as it sends my nose 10 to the dozzen. Every day it gets worse and worse.
Anyway i am going to see someone about my anxiety and this time i am going to try and open up more. I know i could but i like to keep things to myself thing that might hurt people or scare people. But i am a very opinanted person how lets people know what i am thinking.
I have to admit it but i am a lot better with my axiety about 8 months ago i used to let out my anxiety by kicking off and shouting at people mainly my teacher and used to walk around the school about 100 times a day. But now i just go to a quiet place i calm down then talk or just cry and i find that the easiest way is just sitting down and just crying to all out and people find it funny but different staterges help different people.

Sorry about this long one but i just wanted to let you lot know what is going on for there the be less post. If you feel simmuar to me or have some a stratage that helps you please sharee by leaving a comment down below.
XOXO Maddie

Double chocolate cookies

Hey guys, today is going to be my first ever cooking post. 
After a stressful first day back a school after a week off. Me and Lucy from sparkleoflucy decided to make my amazing cookies. They a super gooey and delicious. and here are the measurements:

  

200g of butter

300g of granulated sugar

1 egg

275g of self-raising flour 

75g of coco powder 

1 tbsp of milk 

360g of milkybar chocolate 

methods:

Firstly we creamed the butter and sugar together to create a smooth texture. 

Then crack in the egg and carefully mix together.

After that we added the flour (we didn't sift it but you can if you want to) and we mix it together but half the flour so it would be easier to mix as we did it but hand to save on the washing up. 

To make the chocolate cookies we added the coco powder and making sure that there are no white parts through out the mixture.

If the cookie mix is too dry there is where you add the milk. So that it would combined easily.

Finally add in all the chocolate and making sure you don't eat any. We just broke them up in to piece there wasn't any need for knifes.

On a baking tray with grease prof paper on make good sized ball and evenly space them out on the tray. We had yo use 2 tray and we made 8/9 cookies but they are huge. 

On gas mark 6 or 140 degree just pop them in the oven for 16 minutes and checking them after 11 minutes and swap the trays over. 

Last but not least leave them to cool fully down. 

If you manage to recreate these please set me a picture on my twitter @maddierobson124 and i will re-tweet and give you a shout on on my next post. Also if you will go over to Lucy's blog and on her post put i came for makeupwithmaddy i would much appreciate it and so would she. 

XOXO Maddie 

NYX lingerie

Hey guys, sorry it has been so long without a post i have so many things going on. For example i have just had my mock exams and we are on break now but my sister is in and out of hospital so i am looking after her. I can believe it is so hard to find something to write about.  But here we go with a new review.
I have been using this product for a while now on my lips. I do have some pros and cons about this product but i do have to say it is on of my favourite lip product. Lip lingerie is a matte liquid lipstick. I only have one for these but I am in love. i have the shade teddy. it is a warm tone dark brown and at the moment i feel like dark browns suit me at the moment. It goes with my skin tone and complexion.
The formula is a very buttery when you apply it and then sets in to a beautiful matte. But you it is very drying on the lips. I have to apply plenty of lip balm on before i use it.
But i do like to use it at the moment when i aren't at school this is my go to lip product.

please leave a comment down below on what is you favourite lip product?

XOXO Maddie